This week I have really been taken back. I can't believe that for one day, for one SECOND, I could think I was in control. As if I'm the one telling God where I'm going in life. As if I'm the one giving Him instructions. As if I know what tomorrow's going to bring. As if I can number my days here on earth.
I sit here in awe of how big God is. And I use the word big very lightly. We cannot comprehend the glory of God, how powerful He is, or how much He loves us. After watching Louie Giglio's "How Great is our God" message I have really started to think about how small and insignificant I am. Yet the Maker of the Heavens loves me more than I will ever understand. He wants me. He wants to have a deep and passionate relationship with me. He is jealous for me. And some days I can't "find time" for Him. How can I stand here and now be moved by You? Why am I not content with His love? Why am I constantly searching to be loved by someone who's love for me is incomparable to the love God has for me? I'm not ready to love or be loved by someone else unless I fully understand what the word love really means. God is love. If I want to know what love is I need to know who God is. I need to constantly be longing to know more about Him. I know I will never comprehend how big He is or how much He loves me, but I need to be content with only His love before I can open my heart for someone else's.
1 Corinthians 13:4 "Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance."
Sunday, February 20, 2011
Sunday, February 13, 2011
"I look up to the sky and say, You're beautiful."
I lost track of days and forgot yesterday was Saturday...blogging day.
This past week I have just been in awe of my Maker. I read a post that my friend Kasey and written and it really got to me. When we look at a drawing or see something new there's this feeling that we get that makes us want to see more or want to get closer. I want to be that way with what God has created. Every day this week I looked at the mountains and it made me speechless. God created them. He created the canyons that we could stare at for hours, He put every star in the sky, and He calls us His. Of all the beautiful and amazing things that we see in this world, He loves us individually more than we will ever comprehend. That makes me speechless. I want to be on fire for Jesus Christ. I want to live each day more and more in love with Him. I want to be speechless because of all the colors in the sky at night when the sun is setting, not because I saw a new movie that I thought was "amazing".
With all of that being said, tomorrow is Valentine's Day, and what better way to spend the day of "love" than acknowledging that simply waking up is a gift from God. So even if it rains tomorrow, I will thank God for the new day and allowing people the ability to love so freely.
This past week I have just been in awe of my Maker. I read a post that my friend Kasey and written and it really got to me. When we look at a drawing or see something new there's this feeling that we get that makes us want to see more or want to get closer. I want to be that way with what God has created. Every day this week I looked at the mountains and it made me speechless. God created them. He created the canyons that we could stare at for hours, He put every star in the sky, and He calls us His. Of all the beautiful and amazing things that we see in this world, He loves us individually more than we will ever comprehend. That makes me speechless. I want to be on fire for Jesus Christ. I want to live each day more and more in love with Him. I want to be speechless because of all the colors in the sky at night when the sun is setting, not because I saw a new movie that I thought was "amazing".
With all of that being said, tomorrow is Valentine's Day, and what better way to spend the day of "love" than acknowledging that simply waking up is a gift from God. So even if it rains tomorrow, I will thank God for the new day and allowing people the ability to love so freely.
Saturday, February 5, 2011
"I am fearfully and wonderfully made."
This week started off like every other week. I went to The Well Sunday night and loved it then worked everyday. I realized how much I love worship on Sunday night. They only played two songs and I just felt like that wasn't enough. I realize worship isn't just how many songs you play or whether or not you know the song, but I just really feel the presence of God when I'm singing worship songs for Him. I've known for awhile that music is my passion and before that God is. So why not combine both of the things that are most important to me and use them to glorify my Maker. I intend on someday being a worship. I don't know if that will be at one church every Sunday, or traveling around and playing at different churches. I would love to experience both. We'll see which door God opens first. Also, on Sunday night the speaker spoke about idols and how much they can affect our life. I realized that I put so many unimportant, material things before God and that's just not how it's supposed to be. It's really hard to comprehend, and I'm still learning, what it means to give everything you have to God. I understand that since everything is His we shouldn't have a problem with giving it all back to Him. But there are days when I just don't quite understand. It's human nature to always want more, but I want to work on being completely satisfied with God's love that I don't need anything more than that. So that's what I'm going to do.
This week I also saw a video that I would highly recommend for everyone to see. I'll post the link and let the video speak for itself. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_e4zgJXPpI4
Also this week I had a really good conversation with one of the customers that came into Teazer. We started talking about religion and we both had good points. I explained to him that I don't need proof to have faith. I have a relationship with my Savior and that's all I need. I don't need a scientist to tell me God exists because He has Himself to me more than enough in my lifetime. He then made a statement about the fact that since I've grown up in a Christian home I'm pressured into believing what I believe. I told him no one knows my heart except me. No one can tell me what I can and can't believe. No one has pressured me into believing in God. No one is making me have a relationship with Christ. I made the decision when I was 17 to fully commit my life to Him. When I was younger I was baptized and asked Him into my heart. But I didn't really understand what that meant until now. Now that I'm older I am able to make my own decisions, and I have decided to live my life for the One who gave it to me. It was a very healthy conversation on religion which I love. I don't like when I feel attacked for what I believe and I'm glad it didn't turn into that.
This week I also saw a video that I would highly recommend for everyone to see. I'll post the link and let the video speak for itself. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_e4zgJXPpI4
Also this week I had a really good conversation with one of the customers that came into Teazer. We started talking about religion and we both had good points. I explained to him that I don't need proof to have faith. I have a relationship with my Savior and that's all I need. I don't need a scientist to tell me God exists because He has Himself to me more than enough in my lifetime. He then made a statement about the fact that since I've grown up in a Christian home I'm pressured into believing what I believe. I told him no one knows my heart except me. No one can tell me what I can and can't believe. No one has pressured me into believing in God. No one is making me have a relationship with Christ. I made the decision when I was 17 to fully commit my life to Him. When I was younger I was baptized and asked Him into my heart. But I didn't really understand what that meant until now. Now that I'm older I am able to make my own decisions, and I have decided to live my life for the One who gave it to me. It was a very healthy conversation on religion which I love. I don't like when I feel attacked for what I believe and I'm glad it didn't turn into that.
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